Sunday, August 5, 2012

Endings Still....

Sitting in Astoria Oregon... a place some have observed seems like the end of the earth.  From this place the Columbia river surges toward the open sea.  A mighty bridge spans two lands just before the bar announces change with a fast and dangerous tide.  This is my transition place.

I let the dog go yesterday.  I don't want to see him again until I come back next summer.  Another leave taking that breaks my heart.  This animal understands me and loves me unconditionally.  He has been my traveling companion, my silent counselor, my bodyguard,  my friend.  I believe he's a gift from GOD, and now I have to trust that gift to the hands of the giver.  This TRUST will become my new unseen companion.  There are so many facets of my life that have now become unknown, unpredictable, unreasonably precarious.  Will the house be okay in the hands of the renter?  Will the dog and the cat remember me and keep me in their hearts?  Will my children be ok without me?  (Ha Ha Ha Ha)  Will my new apartment bring me peace?  Will I make friends?  Will I be good at this new job?  Worry worry worry worry worry

Oh my how we worry.  But this is my moment of I will move away from worry and cross over the river into absolute trust in the GOD that has created, guided, protected, encouraged, and LOVED me for all time.  Now is the point at which I must live out actively what I know to be true, that this GOD, the father of Abraham, Isaac & Jaycob, this great "I AM" has me and everything having to do with me in His hands.

Tonight I pack.


  1. Just remember to breathe dear friend, it will work out alright. The journey is in His Hands.

  2. Connie, I bookmarked your blog, so am looking forward to reading your entries as you enjoy this new chapter of your life. Hope all is going well. Marianne ( I left my blog address in case you want occasional reminders of this area---I post on it every morning.

    Have a wonderful year in Turkey.